It's filled with dreams that can't be fed.
So much noise swarms around inside his mind.
Can't you see all the pain?
Can't you see all the pain?
"Nothing's wrong" he says so easily,
But those words are just dust in the breeze.
Stubbornly, he so insists
That he is fine, but he will still fall from the hill.
Because life made him spin.
One more time, one more time
I will keep on rolling because that's all I know.
And so he said, so he said
Hiding all the meanings, though it's a futile effort.
One more time?
Not much more.
I would keep going, but there's no end in sight.
I might as well stop my own breath
Right now.
Rolling Boy, now at his limits' ends,
Cannot recall the hues of the past.
Every voice shouting from within his head
Muddles into itself, muddles into itself.
"Nothing's wrong" he says so easily,
But those words are just dust in the breeze.
He won't care what happens, right?
So let him roll from the same hills, the same slopes again.
Let him roll, can't you see?
Ah, one more time, one more time
I will keep on rolling because that's all I know.
And so he said, so he said
Finding all the pieces to all the hidden meanings.
You okay?
Just a little more.
I will keep going because the end's in sight.
And that is to stop my own breath
Right now.
One more time, one more time
I will keep on rolling because that's all I know.
And so he said, so he said
Smiling through the voices with no other options.
You okay? It's all fine now.
Aren't you so fed up with how your life is?
Your breathing will stop rolling out
Right now.
Anna....
ReplyDeleteQuestion. Did you write this poem/song? Another question. Are *you* Rolling Boy? Please hang in there!! Life can--and will--get better!! Please be emotionally strong, please be mentally resilient!! I know that you are/have been suffering from Depression. I understand.... It is hard!! I know that at least one point--or more--you were feeling suicidal. I understand.... It is hard!! I know that you often feel worthless, that you often feel like a nobody, that you may even feel like an incredible failure whose Life will never, ever amount to anything. PLEASE DON'T!! God has great plans for your Life, for your future!! You are still only a teenager, after all!! I do mean that.... In the best way possible!! You possess abilities, you possess talents, you possess gifts!! You're a great person--in more ways than one--who has been an incredible voice for people with Aspergers syndrome, people with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, people with physical/learning disabilities and then some!! You are Beautifully Unique.... You are fearfully and wonderfully made, Friend!! ;)
Why do people suffer? Because we have to. What would Life be....? --Bruce Springsteen
"Stay hard, stay hungry, stay alive", Raelyn
This song was actually inspired by one of my characters, but thanks.
DeleteAnna....
Delete"Rolling Boy" was inspired by one of your characters?! I am feeling real silly now!! Not embarrassed.... Just silly!! I feel too much, I see everything. I was reading between the lines with this song's lyrics. I seriously thought that *you* were Rolling Boy.... Which made me feel frightened for my Friend!! So.... I was deploying my inner Sherlock Holmes.... I felt, saw and emotionally/mentally observed everything!! However. Although I never underestimate my inner Sherlock, he is not always correct!! It keeps him humble!! Ha!! ;-D
"Rolling Boy" is a very good song, Friend!! I want to know more about your character!! For I am feeling empathy, love and compassion toward him now!! {I do that with fictional characters.... As well as real people!!} It feels like you wrote this song, you created this character, for *me*!! Why? Because I can relate to so many of Rolling Boy's thoughts, feelings and emotions!! Songs, fictional stories, characters.... It is cool how they can reach in and grab your heartstrings, speak to your soul!! I love it!! I know that a lot of Bruce Springsteen's songs/lines/lyrics/characters do that to me!! ;)
"Stay hard, stay hungry, stay alive", Raelyn
DeletePS. Maybe you should make a note that this song, or that poem was written by *you* {or somebody else} and explain it a little bit for your Blogging Friends, for your Readers, for dumb people like me!! ;)
"Stay hard, stay hungry, stay alive", Raelyn
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The rolling boy reminds me of Ali, Fenris and Cole from Dragon Age. Ali because, well, the ptsd, aggression and general instability. Fenris because he was formerly a slave to this magister named daranius who burnt lyrium into his skin and gave him these very unique powers but now he hates being touched and as a slave he went through some VERY messed up stuff and daranius wiped his memory of everything before the lyrium ritual so he didn't even recognize his own sister. And as for Cole, Coles just a nice(ish) kind of creepy little ghost kid who murders people to put them out of their misery (a compassion demon) and has depression.
ReplyDeleteI feel like that sometimes! But I fear that you will become even more depressed listening to songs like these! I am worried about you!
ReplyDeleteSylvia....
Delete"I fear that you will become even more depressed listening to songs like these! I am worried about you!" I absolutely agree!! Find some happy, heartfelt, upbeat, feel-good songs, Anna!! ;)
Like Mom often asks me when I am feeling moody, irritable or agitated.... "Are you thinkin' happy thoughts?" ;-D
"Stay hard, stay hungry, stay alive", Raelyn
From what I remember:
ReplyDeleteis Rolling Boy Kaito? Or even Steve?
M: Enjoyed reading about your characters above.
I especially enjoy Cole. A world with compassionate demons is a world which is not too bad. Killing people to put them out of their misery.
FlutistPride: here's a good link about Minecraft in education:
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Found it in Teach with ICT on my G+ dashboard.
It's about Steve, but I mainly wrote these lyrics because no other "Rolling Boy" versions of Rolling Girl have decent lyrics.
DeleteFilling in a gap is great.
DeleteDo the other lyrics go into only one dimension of the Roller's character?
Or are they tone or rhythm lacking?
Adelaide:
DeleteThanks. Well, Cole and Fenris belong to bioware who makes the dragon age series. They just appear in my universe sometimes.
Cole is "interesting" Sera calls him "creepy Cole" and The Iron Bull (A quanari inquisition member) calls him "my creepy ghost boy." For example "Cole, your not just a creepy ghost boy, you MY creepy ghost boy. Remember that :)" Cole: "Thanks Bull, I guess." He saw the way the Templars treat the mages and it's heartbreaking really. So he puts them out of their torment and misery.
And Bioware did a good job.
DeleteTemplars ... I'd not trust them in any universe, canon or otherwise.
This Iron Bull was a good introduction.
Yes they did, go Bioware!!
DeleteI don't trust Templars, bad experiences in assassins creed haha!
Bull is hilarious, bull and Sera is even better. The best through is Zevran, Alarian, Fenris, Hawke, Alistair, Iron Bull, Sera, Dorian, Varric and Isabela. It's absolutely hilarious if you have all of them playing Wicked Grace or DimondBack (card games) or just hanging out in general!!